This week I centered my focus around a quote I read in the book Blowing My Way To The Top by Jen Atkin given to me by my dear friend Kellyhope when we both knew that I was on the verge of hitting a new level and this level was going to pull a part of myself I had never embodied before.
“Get out of the way of a woman who has stepped her shit all the way up. “
This quote resonating with me not from the perspective that there is anyone on the outside that is in my way, but as many of us, the ways in which I get in my own damn way.
How many times have you decided to make a change in your life and boom, a part of you slides in like an overly confident and persistent guy at a bar when you’re just trying to have a good time with your girls?
Or maybe you find yourself making great strides, looking like a model on the catwalk and the next thing you know your heel gives out and down you go.
I’ve been there, we’ve all been there.
Almost always, its something in our subconscious that gets triggered by this unknown, confident and goal oriented energy and its decided to take you three steps back because, well, FEAR.
Now I’ve played this game with myself more times than I could possibly count. I know my triggers and I know the signs that my body sends out as messengers. ALERT! ALERT! Success is inevitable and we’re stuck in this old frame of thinking! ABORT MISSION!
Bless your heart my sweet ego, I know why you try so hard to protect me but your truth is not my truth and therefore your trigger has just given away not only your position but also your belief.
Shadow work doesn’t have to be this big, scary, “my life might fall apart” kind of thing. It can absolutely be a “falling together” kind fo thing IF you decide to take the drivers seat and choose to keep going even if you get a flat along the way.
Let’s roll with this new metaphor because shadow work, like our lives is a journey and on this journey “flat tires” are bound to happen, it does not mean that we shouldn’t still be excited and focused on where we are going. The thing is that we might start and stop this journey many times, maybe even give up and go back home only to hear the calling again and once more decide to pack up what we’ve learned and head out once more.
My point here it that, its going to be a cycle within cycles and you are the only one who gets to continue to choose the perspective and narrative from which your story is told.
SO GET YOUR NEGATIVITY OUT OF THE WAY BY ADDRESSING IT.
The power is all held when we acknowledge what these blocks are made of, what creates them, triggers them and what eases them?
If you have decided that you are going to turn your expression in this life all of the way up the only one who can or will stop you is you.
This is why it is said that the most important connection is within yourself, you have to be solid so that the connections you have with others and the goals you have are all rooted in the integrity of the relationship you have fostered within.
Be kind to yourself through this process my friends and don’t expect to get it down on the first try.
BE CURIOUS about yourself would be my #1 piece of advice because taking this childlike wonder in approach your behavior centers your heart in unconditional love free of judgement and unhelpful criticism.
In my own cycle and in my week applying this quote to my life, I felt myself being quick to identify an excuse when it came up. Taking the excuse and going one step further to ask, what does this need from me right now to feel safe enough to keep going?
I thought myself, “how do I get out of my own way?” Well for starters, my body needs to be healthy, so vitamins were first up before coffee and right next to my quiet time. Mind and body, check.
Can this be reduced down to a checklist? If checklists are your thing, then the answer in short is yes.
I will leave you today with one question, how do you best accomplish your daily needs and to-dos?
Some people have practiced the “spoons” method, being that lets say five spoons are all we have energy to do in one day then that is enough.
We are goal oriented beings, make space for yourself in your daily goals, make an intention to yourself to stick to them and sit back to observe yourself as to how and why they do or do not get done.
A small step now and daily is a journey in the long run.
