I woke up to the sound of Daisy barking in her kennel, ok spirit, I hear you time to let you out into the world.
We’re now coming into that time of the year in which the sun doesn’t rise until 6:30am which although on one side makes it a little more challenging to get out of bed when you’re nice and warm in the comforter but on another side is added bliss felt in the darkness of quiet in a home where love hasn’t yet awakened but soon will.
This week I have applied myself to observing HOW I express myself as a walking miracle and today in particular I wanted to make this day an altar to myself filled with offerings of nourishment, cleansing and a little bit of retail therapy.
It’s a little after noon and I just finished eating my second favorites chilaquiles (first being my mom’s) at Fido in Nashville.
My body has been heard, nourished accordingly and am now making space to express my creativity and let spirit work through my hands. Just before this, I spent two hours at my favorite place in Nashville, Pure Sweat for a Float and Sauna. This part of my self-care is nothing new, no sense in re-inventing that part of the wheel because it always works for me.
If you’ve been following here for any duration of time you might know that I have three children that I homeschool and being a Virgo, quiet, alone time is my most important love language. If I am ever feeling overwhelmed, frustrated and snippy its either because I’ve had too much coffee and haven’t eaten or because I haven’t had a day to myself.
Well today is my day to myself and I have decided to show up like I am on a date with someone that I want to spend the rest of my life with and while I may be a little boujee more than any thing I find the greatest luxury to be a solid intention paired with follow-through.
I have this precious life and I intend to use it to express myself as art through all of my roles, gifts and energy.
I am sitting in front of a window, the clink and clatter of silver and dishes, conversations people are having with their company and outside all kinds of people coming and going. Nashville sure does love to bring their dogs with them everywhere.
I’m kind of having one of those moments where you feel like timelines have merged..in another life I would’ve been doing the same thing I’m doing right now. I sure am glad that when I feel satisfied with the time I’ve spent alone with myself I can go home to my family and all of the crazy animals.
Often I think to myself that I am living proof that we really can have it all. I don’t mean that just materialistically either, I mean we can have rock bottoms and pure, blissful highs too. At my lowest points in my life I could have never imagined I would be where I am right now, and yet here I sit, free to be.
So what inspires us to take the action necessary to get from the bottom to the top (that’s some wet, that’s some wet. Ok ok I had to!)?
Sometimes it’s our wounds, sometimes it’s our gratitude and joy.
While I would much rather move from a space of gratitude and joy because frankly it just feels good, I have to acknowledge the value in the ability of our wounds to propel us ‘anywhere but here.’ That approach may very well bring us another turn in the same cycle except with a different environment or person but even so, eventually the pattern will be recognized and we’ll either choose insanity or healing.
What about that kind of uncertainty makes us believe that we are safe?
What is it about consciously creating how we will act and show up in the world makes us feel uncertain? It tests our self-confidence, faith and even when we know what must be done we feel “stuck?”
Yet, when things are ‘bad’ we are quick to act because we know we must.
Sometimes I feel like the world of healing and self-care has become a comfortable space to “get stuck” in rather than a means to inspire self-confidence and faith in our actions. I’ve been in that space and its boring.
My spirit more than ever has been getting louder about how much it wants to move and while I’m in that movement and flow its AMAZING but getting started? Not so much.
I believe this is where it mirrors how I help guide others in their own journeys, the image just came of me of a parent gently holding their on hand on the back of their child as they are learning to ride their bike. I think that is a very fair description of what it is like to do what I do, providing the strength, trust, affirmation needed to sustain the fire within that inspires those legs to keep moving until the cycling becomes muscle memory. I know my hand won’t be needed there forever but I enjoy fulfilling the need while I am called upon to do so.
Today, I ask you what metaphorical bike are you learning to ride at this time in your life friend? It is learning how to be a self-healer? Learning how to listen to and apply your inner voice? How can I show up as a gentle hand, friend and guide to assist you as you wobble, feel nervous, then excited as you build confidence on this part of your journey?
I aspire to inspire and just now the sun decided to shine on me through the window and its now time for me continue on creating this day as an altar to the person I was created to be and ultimately am.
I hope wherever you are today and whatever mindset you are in that you dedicate some time and space to yourself.
Should you feel called to work together please reach out, start a conversation with the awareness that I am only a mirror and we have a lot we can learn together.
My love to you. Live a life you feel good about. DD
