Photography by Moth to Flame Designs
I’ve been typing away and deleting for nearly an hour now.
I don’t know that I even have any of the words necessary to write about what the last few weeks have been like. I’ve cried ALOT, journaled some of the most honest conversations to myself that I have in a very long time and ultimately come into a sense of self-acceptance that I wasn’t sure would ever be genuine.
I think it’s really easy for us to repeat affirmations and tap into the vibration that we desire to be at but it is the truth that is the key to unlocking the path from where we are currently at to the vibration that we wish to be at. Let me share with you that accepting the truth sometimes can feel like that scene in the Titanic where they’re trapped behind the cage door with the water rising and the keys have fallen to the floor. Which key is the truth? Can it be found in enough time before you drown?
Photography by Moth to Flame Designs
My throat still feels like I have a knot in it even as I type this and I am learning to be alright with feeling so sensitive to everything that has been hidden inside of me for so long. I’m learning that it is ok to feel the fear of existing here and doing so anyway. I’ve seen just how much of my life has been spent coping, making excuses rather than living and I don’t choose that for myself anymore.
In short, I am changing, I have changed. I am healing and creating new beliefs about myself and I have to expect that those beliefs will be challenged but that is when I draw upon the experiences I have already gone through and I realize that living a life under false beliefs is much worse than walking my true journey. I hope that I can continue to share here everything that comes with the human experience.
