“The wound is the place where the light enter you.” -Rumi
Wow! This blog has been a dream of mine for so long and here it is, the time is now for it to come to fruition. The truth is that I’ve been ready for quite a while but I had to reconcile aspects of myself and believe that what I have to say was worth not only writing but being read. And so here we are!
Welcome friend! I look forward to creating a beautiful space here to share the many journeys a Diosa experiences in her life and the lessons that come with it.
I have been dreaming of what I wanted this creative space to feel like and it occurred to me that maybe this is about expressing the many ways in which love is felt, found, shared and expressed.
When I was a child, I started asking questions as soon as I learned how to speak. Why? Why? WHY? Once I learned how to write I began to carry around a notepad and pencil to copy down anything I found interesting, license plates, names etc. I would practice and practice until I got my letters just right.
As an adult, I’ve found myself asking the question “Why doesn’t anyone teach us how to love and respect ourselves?” Maybe it is only important that I am now asking that question because in searching for that answer I have learned so much about myself, where I come from and consequently the world as I perceive it.
Let’s can begin here, with LOVE.
I don’t believe that anyone can teach us how to love and respect ourselves because both are feelings that can only be witnessed from within. I do however believe that love and respect can be mirrored and in my life I found myself constantly looking for that mirror. I looked to my parents, my classmates, my ex-lovers and my husband of nine years. It was my hope that once I found this love that my life could be complete and all of the pain and suffering I had endured would be swept away, I could be safe. It was only until I found myself standing in front of a mirror to see myself in the reflection that I realized I was that love and respect I was looking for all along. Since that day, I have been on a journey of healing and a daily practice of embodying that love.
I believe on some level many of us have lived with the belief that someone will come and save us from our life, that in one fell swoop it we will lifted up to an experience that we could call a dream. Life has taught me otherwise, it is through simple but consistent daily behaviors that we transform our existence. By connecting with our heart and awakening that love within our eyes are opened to all of the love and abundance available to us.
But OMG consistency is work y’all!!! Look, my spiritual practice is an important part of my life and is has transformed all other areas of my life. While I understand now that I am a soul having a human experience, I laugh because a big part of my human experience is being a mother of three children and sweet sweet Universe they are full of energy!
HOW? How are we going to do all of the things AND raise conscious free humans while saving just enough energy to outlast the kids to “snuggle” with your partner? It’s not going to be about the how, its going to be the “why?” And that’s a question I hope to inspire you to answer as I invite you to join me in my every day practice of loving and respecting myself and being intentional about what I wish to gain and give back during this experience.
Let’s drop in shall we?
I share my life with an extraordinary man named Casey, who I believe to be my twin flame. We have been married for nine years and together are raising three incredible children, Viv, Ollie and Vida. We live a comfortable life in Clarksville, Tennessee and have called this place home for nine years. Speaking of home we are on the brink of moving to a new house on nearly an acre and a half and we are thrilled!
We live a beautiful life and it’s been what feels like an eternity to get into this space where I can recognize it for the gift it truly is. I have shared openly about my struggles with mental illness and it is because I have been in those dark thoughts and experiences that I look for my why’s. But healing isn’t always easy and at times it comes up unexpectedly and we still have to show up to our roles as partners, parents and friends.
I want to share this space with you for no other reason than that I hope it can serve as a mirror that can guide you back to yourself and your love and truth. A remembering that there is no good or bad, but there is a commitment to yourself and that takes consistency but it most certainly can done if it is your will. Consistently showing up with a grateful heart, consistently allowing old programs to fall apart so that one may unlearn, relearn and grow. It’s doing our best to believe in ourselves with unshakable truth and take action when called upon. When we reach the end of our life we should know exactly why it was lived
